1 Samuel 15:22-23

    Then Samuel said,

        Do you think all God wants are sacrifices-
            empty rituals just for show?
        He wants you to listen to him!
        Plain listening is the thing,
            not staging a lavish religious production.
        Not doing what God tells you
            is far worse than fooling around in the occult.
        Getting self-important around God
            is far worse than making deals with your dead ancestors.
        Because you said No to God's command,
            he says No to your kingship.

Loved and Lost

Who said it was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all? Because clearly they were never in love. Lets face it love hurts, compared to any other emotion non can cause as much or as long lasting pain as love. To lose the one person in the world who means everything to you, the one person who you would do anything for, give your life for is the worst pain in the world. When your life is shared as closely as two people in love to lose that love is like trying to live without part of your body. Not even a minor part though, it is like trying to live without a liver or a whole arm. Although I have made huge progress in my relationship with God in the last 14 months I feel as though I am missing out on two major things, 1) a true intimate relationship with God and 2) someone I can really share my life with. On a daily basis I see things which remind me of my past with my ex and there is a pain and a hole gaping wide in my life. Try as I might nothing has yet filled it. Getting to know and love God is something I am slowly doing yet I am hesitant due to my human experiences. I know God will never let me down, yet I still feel as though I am not ready to give all my life to him. I know the pain of my past is something which in time will become easier to bear, but I must learn to accept God and give him my all or I will never fill the void I have in my life. And I know this needs to be done soon because as Christians we should be ready at any moment for Him to return, I don't want to be found wanting.

Ephesians 6:10-20

    And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels.
    Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You'll need them throughout your life. God's Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.
    And don't forget to pray for me. Pray that I'll know what to say and have the courage to say it at the right time, telling the mystery to one and all, the Message that I, jailbird preacher that I am, am responsible for getting out.

Intelligence and knowledge

Kind of in the same vein as yesterday and the science vrs religion debate (that one is not over yet). But how should we deal with the question of intelligence, knowledge and the understanding of the world. Is there a line which we should draw at which point we say ok, no more, this is beyond us and for God alone. Are there areas of knowledge we are not supposed to know or routes we should not go down, intellectually speaking. Again hailing back to yesterday. should we put science to bed as knowledge God never intended for us? In my opinion the answer is a resounding NO. Curiosity is a part of being human and as such we believe to be a gift from God. We read in the Bible that we were made in God's image and he is please with us, with the exception of sin. There is the whole of creation out there, bigger than we can imagine. As Douglas Adams said "Space is big. Really big. You just won't believe how vastly, hugely, mind-bogglingly big it is. I mean you may think it's a long walk down the road to the chemist, but that's just peanuts to space.". As a scientist I  work on a daily basis with mind boggling facts about this amazing creation God has made for us and I can not imagine he does not want us to wonder, marvel and then strive to understand what he created. We may never get to that point of understanding but surely to understand even part of God's creation is a good thing. In 1 Corinthians 12:2 it says; God wants us to use our intelligence, to seek to understand as well as we can. I believe that this is as much a call to study the universe as it is to study God's word.

Matthew 4:23

    He also healed people of their diseases and of the bad effects of their bad lives.

Science and religion

I am right in the middle of this battle on a daily basis. I am a trained scientist, my specialities are in Quantum, Nuclear and Subnuclear Physics. So as you can imagine I come across the science religion debate a lot. In a department of about 400 I am 1 of only about 40 religious people and only 1 of 2 Christians. Most of the religious academics in my department are Muslim and as such no one really says anything for the fear of offending. However as a Christian I am seen as fair game, where as Islam is viewed as cultural Christianity is viewed as an emotional support for unintelligent people. Personally the biggest problem I have with this debate is not that science and religion are incompatible. The issue is that we have reached a point where both sides are so entrenched that neither can easily move, or for that matter see above the parapet. As I am in a privileged position of being able to see both sides I have the opportunity to fight the battle on both fronts. Day by day while working I have the chance to show my fellow scientists that being a Christian does not stop me being exceptional at my job. It also lets me use unique opportunities to describe my faith in a way other Christians would not get. On the other front my example can show fellow Christians that science is not the enemy. Science is as God given as religion is, through science we can see the sheer awesomeness of our God and his wonderful creation. I think that this is enough on the subject for now but I do intend to post further on this debate as I feel it is wasting valuable time in both camps fighting a war that makes no sense since we both agree on so much. Until next time.

Mark 3:28

    "Listen to this carefully. I'm warning you. There's nothing done or said that can't be forgiven."

Why does the Enemies side seem so good?

I have lived quite a varied life. Having been raised in a loving Christian family when I got to University I turned my back on my Church, my family and God. I went out into the world and decided I would experience it all for myself. A lot of what I did and experienced for 5 years was hurtful and soul destroying, yet at the time I believed myself to be happy. I could do what I wanted when I wanted with who I wanted and no one was going to make me feel bad about it especially not some fairy story of some guy who lives in the sky. I sampled pretty much everything I had been sheltered from by growing up in the Church and enjoyed the sense of instant gratification. Yet all the time I felt a hole. I tried to fill it by following my girlfriends religion and to all intents and purposes became a practising Buddhist. When this didn't work I tried the religion of my ancestors, Viking Paganism. Despite having no boundaries except that which I decided on I couldn't find what I was looking for. When after 4 years my relationship with my girlfriend fell apart I lost the last firm anchor in my life and realised how empty my life had become. I ended back home with my parents as I literally had nowhere else to go. After some persuasion I began attending Church again but would sit and play my DS for the whole service. Then one week I realised that I had been paying attention to the service when on the way home I began to quiz my Dad on what had been said. Slowly over the weeks I started to pay more attention and began to feel involved in a way I never had before. By September 2009 I had been attending Church again for 3 months but then had to move back for University. Being so "new" to the faith all could have gone astray again, and almost did. I was working in an pretty toxic environment and mixing with similar people to before. Yet each week I found myself attending Church, at first not for the right reasons but slowly began to feel at home, at peace and loved. Unfortunately there are many out there who live as I once did, they know nothing of God or his love for them. And to them the world does look infinitely better than God's kingdom. How to compete with a world that gives "pleasure" instantly and allows you to have as much fun as you want, when you want and with who you want is tough. God will give us chances each day to shine in other peoples lives. God will provide us with opportunities to show how our lives are full of joy despite the pains of the world. It is at these moments we can battle with the enemy because although his side does look better in the short term I can say from experience what he has to offer is nothing compared to what I have already been given by God. The greatest thing is God has yet to begin to really use my life or share his infinite bounty with me and that makes me feel better than I ever did while on the enemies side.

Grow up or be childlike?

Ok so we all know that Jesus said we should be childlike. But in Matthew 5.48 we are told to grow up. Is this another one of those contradictions that seem to occur in the Bible that for some people muddy the waters? Lets face it, there are quite a few passages in the Bible that at first glance seem to contradict one another. This though is more a failing on our part, a failing in understanding and false interpretation. Going back to my "example" when we look more closely at the scriptures we find that although Jesus did instruct us to be childlike, it was to be childlike in faith. Jesus wants us to accept him and his truth as a child listens and trusts implicitly in their parents. As a child we should ask questions and explore our faith with vigour and curiosity. However when we receive an answer for Him we should trust it whole heartedly. In Matthew 5.48 we are being instructed on a totally different subject, our interactions with other kingdom subjects and the world. We are being told that it is not enough to be nice and "Christian" when it is easy with people who are easy to deal with. We must be Christlike in all our life, with those who attack us and those who hate us. We must model our whole lives on Jesus' example. Now I know this is a fairly simple and easy comparison to make, but it is the point I am trying to make. Out there are many many people who have at best a little understanding and maybe a small nugget of knowledge about our Lord and Saviour. With these people confusions will arise over such passages. As active, practising Christians it is our duty to know as much as we can about our God and His word. Short version is there is no excuse not to know the Bible, there is no excuse not to do Bible study. At the end of the day our eternal lives depend on our actions here, lets at least try our best.

Mark 8:34-38

"Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to saving yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? What could you ever trade your soul for? If any of you are embarrassed over me and the way I'm leading you when you get around your fickle and unfocused friends, know that you'll be an even greater embarrassment to the Son of Man when he arrives in all the splendor of God, his Father, with an army of the holy angels."

Secluded prayer

A few weeks ago I went to the beach to spend some time alone. I had just been talking to a friend about my future and needed to get some things clear in my head. It was a peaceful night without another soul in sight. During this time I was reminded of the following passage, Matthew 6:6 "Here's what I want you to do: Find a quiet, secluded place so you won't be tempted to role-play before God. Just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage. The focus will shift from you to God, and you will begin to sense his grace." It is a wonderful thing to experience, being surrounded by creation in all its fullness and experiencing God in it. It would be amazing if we could all find time like this regularly to spend with God, but inevitably life often gets in the way. But sometimes we need to remember that although God sent us out into the world we are set apart from it by him. Because he set us apart sometimes need to remove ourselves from the world to be with him. Even the best soldiers need time to rest and recuperate and for this reason God has given us prayer. I as much as anyone need to learn to use this fantastic gift so that we might do His work full of His spirit. 

Modern miracles

There are all sorts of modern miracles from advanced medical science to amazing feats of engineering. But all of these things despite being miraculous have a human element to them that non Christians use to explain away God. However every once in a while something happens that can not be explained other than some form of intervention. A little while ago when I was doing my personal Bible study after a long hard day in the lab a piece of music came on my PC. This piece has a certain significance to it as it was sung by one of my favourite artists and also quotes one of my favourite Bible verses at the end of it. I know that I have not added this piece of music to my PC or my itunes library and yet there it is to see and available to play. Stranger yet, I have looked through all the files on my PC and run a search for the file and it is no where to be seen on my PC. There are many people who may doubt this or claim there is another explanation, but for me the coincidences stack up quite fast. We sometimes ask where is God in the modern world? Well He is there, we just need to have the eyes to see Him.

Romans 8:38-39

    For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
           Romans 8:38-39 (KJV) 

Prayer as a way of life

One ting in my life I have always struggled with is prayer. I try and try and all I feel is that I am talking to emptiness. I really struggle because its not as though I feel my words are falling on deaf ears. Moreover I feel as though there are no ears there to hear. The stupidest thing is I know God is answering my "prayers", every time I need help He provides it. Every time I need Him he is there. A lot of my friends are non Christian and claim that what I see as an answered prayer is just a coincidence. However as a scientist I know that this number of coincidences could not happen by coincidence. There has to be a guiding and behind what is going on. Although I can see this and know that God is working in and through my life the communication is one sided. I find the Bible to be the most inspiring book and when I am using it on a daily basis I see God talking to me in a very personal way. I just need to learn how to respond. Someone once told me that a Christian should have two things central to their life, prayer and Bible study. I know I need to work on integrating both of these in to my life much more that they currently are. I'll challenge anyone reading this the same way I was; How is your prayer life? How is your Bible study?

Isaiah 55

On Saturday I simply posted a verse which was given to me by a friend to help in the situation I am in. It does give a good overview of my life both currently and in the recent past. There is probably a lot I could say on this verse, however I feel that this page can articulate it better than I can currently. Even if this particular verse doesn't speak to you personally please have a look at the web page as it is a fantastic resource and aid for study. Remember Isaiah invites us all to God, even if we have nothing to offer. Jesus is the reason that we can go to God even if we have nothing because he already paid for us.

Trusting in the Big Guy

My life is quite random, I very rarely plan things and often don't know what I will be doing one day to the next. It has been like this for years and is working out quite well for me right now. I have managed this mainly due to my "everything will be right, and if not I'll sort it then" attitude. I have just kind of fallen from one thing to the next with any decisions being made on the fly by gut instinct. I know God has his guiding hand in life and has his plan, but it seems that my life has been shaped more by recklessness than anything else. And now that I find myself trying to follow his plan I am struggling to head in that direction and trust that things will be fine. I know in my heart of hearts that the plans will work and that everything will work out in the way His plans are laid. Yet I find myself resisting, over thinking and avoiding them. In the past I have always relied on my ability to charm myself out of any situation and my intelligence to fix any problems as they arise. This next stage in my life I know I can not complete as I am, there must be changes in my life. But I am scared to do what needs to be done. We are taught that God will never let us down, that when we can not walk he will carry us, but why is it so hard to actually have faith in this. The Bible says that faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains, if that is the case I am embarrassed at how small my faith must seem right now.

Isaiah 55:1-13

       "Hey there! All who are thirsty,
            come to the water!
        Are you penniless?
            Come anyway—buy and eat!
        Come, buy your drinks, buy wine and milk.
            Buy without money—everything's free!
        Why do you spend your money on junk food,
            your hard-earned cash on cotton candy?
        Listen to me, listen well: Eat only the best,
            fill yourself with only the finest.
        Pay attention, come close now,
            listen carefully to my life-giving, life-nourishing words.
        I'm making a lasting covenant commitment with you,
            the same that I made with David: sure, solid, enduring love.
        I set him up as a witness to the nations,
            made him a prince and leader of the nations,
        And now I'm doing it to you:
            You'll summon nations you've never heard of,
        and nations who've never heard of you
            will come running to you
        Because of me, your God,
            because The Holy of Israel has honored you."
        Seek God while he's here to be found,
            pray to him while he's close at hand.
        Let the wicked abandon their way of life
            and the evil their way of thinking.
        Let them come back to God, who is merciful,
            come back to our God, who is lavish with forgiveness.
        "I don't think the way you think.
            The way you work isn't the way I work."
                God's Decree.
        "For as the sky soars high above earth,
            so the way I work surpasses the way you work,
            and the way I think is beyond the way you think.
        Just as rain and snow descend from the skies
            and don't go back until they've watered the earth,
        Doing their work of making things grow and blossom,
            producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry,
        So will the words that come out of my mouth
            not come back empty-handed.
        They'll do the work I sent them to do,
            they'll complete the assignment I gave them.
        "So you'll go out in joy,
            you'll be led into a whole and complete life.
        The mountains and hills will lead the parade,
            bursting with song.
        All the trees of the forest will join the procession,
            exuberant with applause.
        No more thistles, but giant sequoias,
            no more thornbushes, but stately pines—
        Monuments to me, to God,
            living and lasting evidence of God."

Grace under pressure

Dealing with stressful situations is hard. To do it in a Christ like manner is even harder. And lucky me, today I get to experience a very stressful situation. I wont bore you with the details but I will be spending the day in a cramped environment with 3 people who have been driving me up the wall for the last 2 months. Now I know that at some point I will lose my cool at either a situation or more likely a comment made during a situation. How do I deal with it? How can I remain cool and calm when everything about the situation is irritating me to the extreme? One friend of mine told me to use music which will enable me to retreat to my own mental oasis of serenity. And this may be a good way to remain calm, by surrounding myself with things which keep me sane and relaxed. However Paul has some fantastic words to say on this matter, in 2 Corinthians 12:9 he writes "And then he told me, My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness." Hopefully when I am at my weakest today and ready to snap I can trust enough in Jesus to let his grace wash over me and preserve my sanity.

Are you a good person?

I did start writing a different post here this afternoon but which I will now save for another day. The reason for this is that while I was looking online to check out some facts I found this. It actually helped me realise that to move forward it is not enough to just stop sinning, I have to acknowledge the sins of my past and accept God's forgiveness. Its not enough to just renounce sin, I have to allow God to forgive me and remove it from my life. I hope you find this as useful as I did.

A luxury you can't afford

Realistically how often do you read the Bible. If you are not a Christian I guess the answer is never. But for us Christians, except in Church or Bible study, how often do we read and think about the Bible and what it says? It is something I do try to do regularly, but recently since I moved back home after Uni I have let slip. I am not a theologian, nor would I ever profess to be, and I know my Bible knowledge is far below what it should be. I also know that prayer and Bible study should be core to my life. Not long ago I discovered this verse, "Think straight. Awaken to the holiness of life. No more playing fast and loose with resurrection facts. Ignorance of God is a luxury you can't afford in times like these. Aren't you embarrassed that you've let this kind of thing go on as long as you have?" 1 Corinthians 15:34. And to be honest I am embarrassed. It embarrasses me that I don't know anywhere near as much as I should about my religion. How can I expect to live the right life and walk the right path if I have no idea what they are. How can I expect to bring others to Jesus if I am ignorant about him. Not knowing God is a luxury we can't afford in these times more than in the past because the time of His return can only be getting closer. If nothing else comes from me writing this blog I hope that it helps me read and study my Bible more regularly and more closely than before. I don't want to find myself standing in front of our Father and not know who he is, do you?

A-level Drama

So it has been results day today, and as in probably many households all over the country there has been tears, disappointment, elation and success all in one day. The results in our household were not what was wanted but after a difficult year not unexpected. It was pointed out by a number of family members that there has been many prayers said and requests made about these results. At 10.30 this morning it look as though they had all been ignored. As Christians though we need to have faith through the tough times as well as the good, rely on God's plan for us when all seems lost trusting he will always see us through, it's all right there in Psalm 23. As it turned out we managed to secure a place for my brother at a good university doing what he wanted, just not his first choice. I can see that God's will places us just where He needs us, just when He needs us and that the methods do not always seem clear or that great during the process. And although I can see this in other people's lives why can I not have the courage to do what I need to do. I hear His call and yet I can not yet take up my cross to follow Him. A verse which I was given recently has helped me on this subject. "I don't think the way you think. The way you work isn't the way I work." God's Decree. "For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think. Isaiah 55:8-9.

Love thy enemy

This one is hard. I wonder how many people would agree with me. I mean I have a hard enough time loving my brother never mind my enemy. Saying that, at some points in my life deciding if my brother was my enemy was a close run thing. However I came to an understanding with myself on this matter a few years ago when I realised that just because I love my brother does not mean I have to like him at that particular point in time. I know this sounds like a loop hole but bear with me for a second. There are going to be times when people really rub you up the wrong way and drive you insane. At these points you are not likely to be over fond of them. But say for example something terrible happens to them, they lose a family member or become ill or anything. Would you not comfort them or help however you could? That is the love we are talking about here, the Christian spirit. Jesus himself became angry at times but he always had that love in his heart. He always had time for those who needed it. We are called to be Christ like and to love everyone as Jesus did, it wont always be easy but remember, just because you don't particularly like someone doesn't mean you shouldn't love them.

Quit shouting already

Right, have you ever seen a sign from God? Up until recently I would have laughed at this question as just stupid. We live in a universe ruled by science, there is no room for a supernatural God to play puppet master, I'm right yeah? Well, maybe there could be a little room for that, or at least so it seems to me. Increasingly over the last few months I have been noticing things happening, mostly in relation to the Churches I attend. It seems that no matter which Church I am at on a Sunday (I attend two Churches depending on which city I am in on a weekend) the same message is being given to me week in week out. Now if this had just happened once or twice I could write it off as a statistical anomaly, but this is happening every week regardless of where I am. And then it happened again tonight. Its getting to the point now where I can't go to any sort of Church event without something being said about where God wants me to go. Is this going to keep happening until I fully accept it, the lessons from Jonah seems to suggest so.

Its only words! Right?

Does swearing really matter? Because lets face it, they are only words right? Wrong! "The simple moral fact is that words kill." Matthew 5.22. And again in Matthew 12.47 "Words are powerful; take them seriously. Words can be your salvation. Words can also be your damnation.". Words have a significant meaning in Christianity, Jesus was the Word, John 1:1-3 (KJV) "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. The same was in the beginning with God. All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made." God brought the entire Universe into being with a word which shows that words have a power beyond mere speech. But lets face it, we all inevitably use bad language. Even if we claim not to, we all have our personal curse words. And just because they are socially acceptable does not mean they are any better. Take 1 Corinthians 6:12, "Just because something is technically legal doesn't mean that it's spiritually appropriate. If I went around doing whatever I thought I could get by with, I'd be a slave to my whims.". We need to be careful about the way we live and our actions in this life, we are always being watched by someone. Our very actions could be the catalyst to bring someone to God, or even to drive them away. That be as it may though, at the end of the day we are all only human and as such we are victims of sin. We will always fall short and we will forever be sinners. God knows this better than we do, and he has already provided for us. Mark 3:28 "Listen to this carefully. I'm warning you. There's nothing done or said that can't be forgiven." with the same sentiments echoed in Matthew 12.31. We will sin, we will swear and we will always fall short of the life we are supposed to live. That doesn't give us the excuse not to try though. "Knowing the correct password—saying 'Master, Master,' for instance—isn't going to get you anywhere with me. What is required is serious obedience—doing what my Father wills. I can see it now—at the Final Judgment thousands strutting up to me and saying, 'Master, we preached the Message, we bashed the demons, our God-sponsored projects had everyone talking.' And do you know what I am going to say? 'You missed the boat. All you did was use me to make yourselves important. You don't impress me one bit. You're out of here.' Matthew 7:21-23. We know what God wants us to do, we know how He wants us to live. It is not expected of us to be perfect, only to try and live to the guidelines set out for us and to ask for His forgiveness when we fall short. I know this post has been very heavy on the Bible quotes but this topic is something quite close to me and something I have studied frequently. I hope it speaks to you as much as it does to me, please leave your thoughts and comments on this and any other post.

Learning to listen

How many people really listen to anyone else? I would imagine the answer is not many, I know I often don't. Most of us just use the time when someone else is talking to think about what we will say next. Oh sure we will "listen" but we only scan the conversation for buzz words or alarm bells. The art of listening is one that is not practised much, there is always something to distract us or get in the way. Related to this is prayer, anyone who prays knows that it often tends to be a one way conversation. We are forever telling God what we want, what we need and filling the airtime with mostly meaningless banter that He already knows. Who are we doing this for, He knows us inside out, He knows our very souls, for goodness sake He made us didn't He? I'm not trying to say that prayer is meaningless, far from it. However we do need to consider what prayer actually is. It is a conversation with our Father, an intimate meeting of minds where we can truly be ourselves like in no other situation. I guess what I am saying is that we (and I mostly mean me by this) need to slow down from time to time and listen to the other side of the conversation. You don't see signs from God? then why not try slowing down once in a while and listen to what He is saying, you may find out He has been screaming at you for some time.

The most personal book you will ever read

So, the Bible. It's just some old book written by a few dudes in the dim and distant past. I mean it must be so out of date now that it is just silly to keep using it, right? So lets look at a book that I just discovered recently instead. This book could possibly be the best guide to modern life I have ever read. Better than that, when I read it the stories in there could have been personally written for me. It has whole sections that couldn't have been written for anyone else. So what is this fantastical and most magnificent of books you have discovered Sam? Surely it can't be that old dusty book we have been using as a doorstop for years? But that's just it, it really is the Bible. It isn't just some old tome passed down by a few interfering and bearded old men. The Bible is a living testament, a work inspired by the Living Word. It is so personal that there really are passages of scripture that seem as though they are written just for me. The wonderful thing about God and the Bible is that it doesn't stop the fact that they were written just for you too! Whether you are a Christian or not I can guarantee that if you pick up the Bible and read it with an open mind your life will be changed in ways you could not imagine. Give it a chance, use it as it was supposed to be used, a personal guide to Life, the Universe and Everything.

A man and a mission

Ok so here it goes, I'm Sam, I am 24, just out of Uni and trying to plan the rest of my life. Now this all sounds like any other graduate, and in some senses it is. However as a Christian I am not only looking for a well paid job in a stable environment, I am also trying to figure out where God wants me to be and what He wants me to do. So really that is all there is to it, I am the man and the mission is to try and find my calling. Follow me as I try to make sense of the World, the Bible and what they mean in my life (not a small task by any means).