Too much of my self

So yesterday morning I complained and winged about traffic and having a horrible commute to work. I talked about how by praying I was able to find a sense of calm and not cranky and agitated. For me this is a small victory in the fact that I made the choice to pray about it because not long ago I would have tried to deal with it alone.

On the other hand, I did not stop to consider or pray about the situation as it affected other people. And when I found out the extent of the incident I really wish I had. Don't get me wrong, I am pleased that I have managed to grow to the point where I am beginning to consider God as a part of all of my life and not just at certain times. But saying that I want God to be in my life more, I want to be able to say that everything is shared with God.

The incident that caused all of this was the discovery of a dead body in the city centre less than half a mile from where I work. When I found this out I felt very self absorbed and selfish. I know there was no way for me to know that this is what happened but it did alert me to the fact that I had not prayed for the incident only that I would get to work ok and remain calm. Before anyone says don't be too hard on yourself or anything along those lines I am not looking for sympathy or anything here. It is just an observation that I have had that there is still along way for me to go in getting to where I want to be in my prayer life. And even once I get to where I want to be, there is a longer journey ahead for me to continue on.

We all know that we are on a continuing path with God. That there is no such thing as a final destination in this life, we must always struggle on. The key is to remember we are walking with Him and He will always be there to help us if we ask. My minister once said to me, "I don't worry about those who know they have a long way to go, it is the one's who think they have arrived that we need to worry about". Where are you in your life? Do you think you are all you should be? Do you think you have arrived? If you do stop and ask God, what is it I should be doing now?